Friday, 3 February 2017
It's been four months now since Wiggle and I said goodbye and I still miss him every single day. Four months; a third of a year. It feels like so long since I held him but I can remember like yesterday how his soft fur felt when I stroked him and the velvety softness of his ears.
Mostly now I can focus on the happy memories but other times, I still cry for my special boy and feel the emptiness of life without him.
Often I look back through his blog and see what he was doing, remembering the fun, happy, silly boy who was such a joy to share my life with.
So to remember Wiggle four months on, here's a look back on this day in previous years:
Tuesday, 17 January 2017
Seven years ago today Sofy came into my life. She was a foster dog needing assessment and everything was quite different then as of course I had Wiggle and Sir H.
And now, 7 years later, Sofy is an only dog but she's happy and has her toys and loves me and her food and her cuddles. I still miss Wiggle every single day but having Sofy helps so much, I'm so very grateful for her silly ways and that she has helped me through tough times.
I love you my gorgeous, silly, cuddly Miss Sofy xx
Saturday, 24 December 2016
The first Christmas without Wiggle is hard, we miss him so much. I am glad I have his blog to look back through and remember the fun we had and how much Wiggle enjoyed all his gifts. We had Christmas at home, away, with snow but most importantly, lots of special memories.
One of my favourite memories was when Wiggle became fascinated with one of the Christmas tree decorations, a little knitted elf:
Wiggle loved that little knitted elf so much that when my back was turned, he took it down from the tree!
So this year, instead of a star or angel on our Christmas tree, we have the little elf, at the top of the tree next to Wiggle's photo:
Merry Christmas from Sofy and me xx
Sunday, 27 November 2016
Thoughts of Wiggle are always on my mind and with it having been Thanksgiving this week, I've been thinking more about how lucky I was to have Wiggle in my life for the time I did. He was super special and maybe that's why it feels so hard to get used to him being gone now, even though it's been nearly two months.
He loved this time of year, with cooler days and plenty of interesting smells to sniff out amongst the fallen leaves. It's my favourite time of year, especially on bright days. Sofy likes autumn too:
Seeing Sofy in the leaves reminded me how photogenic Wiggle was at this time of year with the beautiful colours as a perfect backdrop to photograph his handsome good looks:
As much as I try and think of the fun times and adventures we shared, I still find myself wishing I could stroke that beautiful, velvety soft black fur and hug my boy. I cry, I feel sad and I remind myself it's grief and it will get easier. But while my head believes that, my heart is still struggling.
Thankfully Sofy is being a Very Good Girl and is affectionate and cuddly, trying her best to cheer me up by being silly and bashing me with her toys to get me to play. Week after next we'll have Lilly staying with us so for a few days we'll be back to a two dog home, which will be nice for both of us.
Sunday, 13 November 2016
Sofy is adjusting to life on her own although I know she must miss Wiggle, just as I do. A couple of times now when we have been out and seen a Black Lab she has got very excited and pulled me towards them as if she thinks its Wiggle.
Of course it isn't him and seeing her disappointed and confused expression is hard for me. But now she gets all of my attention, I think she is happy. She takes an interest in what I'm doing around the house but isn't clingy, which is good as I still have to work. I watch her on the camera and she spends most of her day sleeping in the armchair, which is what she has always done.
Yesterday she helped me in the garden although I wasn't sure that sitting on the piles of leaves I had raked was especially helpful, but we keep each other company. Hopefully one day we will have another Labbie in our lives and I have offered to foster, but for now we will be patient.
Right now Sofy is next to me on the sofa, snoring loudly as she is tired after making the most of a lovely autumn day; cold but sunny, we went up to the Downs.
The leaves were beautiful in the sunshine:
Sofy was nicely colour co-ordinated with her surroundings:
Enjoying the sunshine;
Monday, 31 October 2016
Since she has been an only dog, Sofy has been playing with her toys more. It makes me happy to see her being daft again as she gave up toys when Wiggle got too old for them.
So it meant Sofy was especially excited when our lovely friend Sue sent a parcel to Sofy which contained a fabbie new toy!
We went away at the weekend to visit our good friends Sarah and Phil up in Derbyshire. Sofy had visited before with Wiggle and met Mac the Trailhound and Ruby the Springer Spaniel so she was happy to be reunited with her new friends. She also likes their 4 horses so was happily wandering around in their paddock - the horses are all used to dogs so didn't take much notice.
Once the reunion was over we took the dogs for a walk in the nearby forest and when we came across a pond, Sofy and Ruby decided to get in:
While Ruby swam, Sofy pretended to be a swamp monster:
Sofy's first weekend away without Wiggle was going well until she came face to face with Roo the Bengal Cat:
Roo is the most confident cat which confused Sofy as all other cats she has met want to run away but he stood his ground and followed her around:
Deciding that he was boss in his home, Roo sat on me which Sofy found most distressing so she took herself off to bed and wouldn't look at me and the cat. She thought that if she couldn't see him, he didn't exist:
By the morning, Sofy had a plan - she would camouflage herself by laying on the rug and hope that Roo would leave her alone:
Back home again and today was a lovely, sunny day so after running some errands, we made the most of the autumn sunshine with a walk in the fields across the road:
Sofy was a Very Good Girl and I like to think that she learnt how to be a good house guest from Wiggle...
Sunday, 23 October 2016
We miss Wiggle so much. Every single day, we miss him. He was such a big part of our lives and even though he had been less active in his old age, home seems so empty without him.
Even in his old age, Wiggle was a character. He would follow me to the kitchen and look at me with a quizzical expression, hoping for a snack. I would sneak him a biscuit while Sofy wasn't looking. When we went for our little walks, he would go where he wanted, even if he needed to pull me. When he decided he didn't want to eat from his food bowl I would feed him by hand, which he approved of.
It will get easier, I know, but at the moment it's still very strange to not have Wiggle here. His ashes are home and I thought that would bring some peace but sadly, not yet. I know without any doubt that it was the right time to let him go but knowing that doesn't lessen the sadness.
Meanwhile, Sofy is being a Very Good Girl and I guess it's an adjustment for both of us. I watch her on the camera from work and she sleeps in the armchair or on the rug if there's a sunpuddle.
Since she's been on her own, Sofy plays with toys again, something she hadn't done for a while. In Wiggle's latter months, he lost interest in toys and Sofy did too but now she makes me smile by whapping a toy or pushing one at me so I'll play tuggy with her.
While our autumnal weather has been good, we've been getting out, going across the fields nearby and up to the Downs, trying to think of the many happy memories of Wiggle being with us on our walks.
I know that in time the happy memories will take away the sadness, but for now, we just take each day one day at a time.